Last night, I was at a church committee meeting and mentioned that I was really having difficulty with Bil's new work schedule. He sleeps in until around 9 or 10 and then leaves for work around 2. I don't get to see him a whole lot because I am busy running errands, cleaning, and trying to keep Charlotte and Tommy out of the house so Bil can sleep or look for a new job.
On top of that, Danny never sees his father at all during the school week. Ever. Bil is sleeping when Danny leaves for school and is gone to work before Danny gets home. Which also means that Bil is not around to help me with Danny's therapy. And I really need someone's help with the therapy. Just keeping Charlotte and Tommy quiet and under control alone is a one-man job. Then, on top of that I need to set up all the equipment, plan the activities and somehow motivate Danny to do the exercises. It exhausts me just to think about it right now.
Anyway, I mentioned the difficulty I am experiencing and I was admonished to just be happy that Bil has a job.
I know the woman is right. And I am grateful that Bil has a job. I know a few people who have lost theirs recently, and I don't envy them their plight.
But, that doesn't lessen the challenges I am facing right now. And that doesn't even take into account that so far this year we have had to take 5 weeks of unpaid vacation. Yes, FIVE weeks. That's 10% of our pay for the year. Bil works for an automotive parts company and their biggest clients happen to be the companies that are doing the worst right now. To save money and jobs, the bosses decided that having forced unpaid vacations would be the best route. And while it is better than layoffs, it was a bit painful to lose that income, especially since we just had a baby.
We are fine. I know we are lucky that we had some money saved that we can use in such emergencies and we had some really interesting blessings happen along the way. I know we are blessed that Bil has a job, and I am grateful for that. Still, things are stressful for us right now and sometimes I need to express that or I will explode.
I know we will be ok, so maybe I should keep my concerns to myself. Maybe I will just save them for the blog, since people can choose to read or not to read, but at least I will have some outlet. Hopefully, I won't get tons of comments telling me to buck up and quit whining. Because I happen to be really good at whining and I don't think I can completely go cold turkey.